My health is horrible, and I honestly feel like I am dying. I probably am not but I am still scared. Don't know what is happening to me but this is why I have not updated. I am dizzy, disoriented, tired, have extreme migraines once again for the first time in over a year, shaky, have almost collapsed, my mind is simply out of it. I have even had blurry vision or short spells of blindness and random nosebleeds. It's strange. THAT'S Why I haven't updated. I look back and this was my closest chance... my best chance to fulfill a dream and it still didn't work out and for all that I am sincerely sorry to myself and to everyone.

I will do my BEST to keep going with this but it aint easy, not at all not at all.

I will keep you updated to the best of my ability.